Cocoa I think you you have trouble seeing past your own experience sometimes. I find it unsupportive, but maybe you don't realize it. Secretum is very bright and very aware of of her dx. She knows that sui thoughts can be a symptom, a very dangerous symptom. She will, I hope call 911 if it gets so bad that she's in imminent danger of hurting herself. Sometimes the symptoms get too strong and she needs to call for help and do what's necessary like ER to get help.

S I'm thinking of you and hope you might be feeling better. I'm not able to write much right now.