Ok so this is the first time I've done n e thing like this so here goes... Right well I met someone through work and after about a month of knowing each other we ended up sleeping together. He made it very clear from the start that he didn't want a relationship and that the second I started getting attached he would be gone.. Being recently divorced it was the attention and distraction I needed. At first it was fine he came over about twice a week and left in the Morning. After a while he began to take me to meet his family and friends and we spent more and more time doing things together. I confronted him and told him that I was getting attached and he said it would have to stop between us... But surprise surprise it didn't and as time went on we were acting like a couple just without the label.. After many emotional breakdowns and rants about how he could put someone through this he started becoming nicer saying that he had never known any different and has always run away from things when anything gets serious but he did try and confront his behaviour and eventually we came clean and told everyone we were together things have got better and better although now 8 months on he still won't tell me he loves me and states he doesn't know what love is...fair enough! Do any of us really know. But me being female and having an extreme problem with over thinking just as things start goin really well I start putting peices of a jigsaw puzzle in my head about the first three months of our none relationship/relationship set up and have pretty much realised that he was seeing someone else while acting like he was with me. The realisation of this made me feel stupid and hurt. And now I can't stop thinking about all the times we were acting like a couple and he was sleeping with some other women in between to me that just seems completely heartless. I guess what I'm trying to establish is... Considering he doesn't love me, doesn't get jealous at all in any way and doesn't seem bothered or even sorry about what he was doing to me and see's it as not wrong because he told me all along we weren't together and when he realised how upset I was he didn't make hardly any effort at all to make me feel better in fact when he met me tonight he said he was thinking about ending it but when I confronted him on it he said they were just thoughts and when I said so if I'd of ended it last night would u of even been bothered... His response was " you ain't goin anywhere don't worry about that" I'm just so confused and feel so stupid and unfortunately I do have strong feelings for him cuz if I didn't it wouldn't be tormenting me so much. So help me!! Am I being stupid thinking about the past when things were just starting to get better and better and the change in him now since the start is almost unrecognisable he has tried really hard. Oh someone give me some straight advise please cuz my head isn't even capable of thinking rationally at the moment.. Xxx