Hey All,

So I keep coming back to the possibility of having BPD although I'm not entirely sure why. I guess because I am going through this period of fairly intense self-loathing/ depression and confusion about life. Although I don't suffer from other characteristic elements of the diagnosis such as emotional instability/rage/self-harm, etc. the only other criteria would be possibly abandonment issues although even if I do have this it isn't that severe as I read on this site. Lately, I just feel like there is something wrong with myself (Identity issues). I just feel like a phony who can't show emotion easily unless something really bothers me. This never bothered me before but now I am constantly scrutinizing myself and my past. I just feel like this phony, bad, cynical person that can't escape myself. Again, I meet maybe 2 or 3 at most of the borderline criteria and you need to meet five. I don't know if what I described is just me trying to figure out why I am feeling this way and so I am inserting myself under the label of possible borderline. On the other hand, some of what I read resonates with me and I feel there is something more going in than a depression. I am seeing a psychologist, but I would really like some thoughts or ideas from people that have BPD as you have experience with it. Thanks!