Hi Belle97, have you spoken with a psychotherapist? I ask because a T would be able to help you with this OCD.
My suggestion would be to find distractions that calms you and get you to focus on the distraction. It depends on what works for you.
Other PC members may have posted replies to your posts. And you can have further options on dealing with what you described in a positive way.

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