I was brutally honest with T this past Monday and he ended up calling the crisis team on me and wouldn't let me leave the office without speaking with them first. I had absolutely no plans to carry anything through and told him as much many times that day, but the things I said to him triggered him into taking action for my own safety. After I spoke with the crisis T, they agreed I was safe and let me go home. Had I refused to speak with them, I would have been brought down to the ER or had a visit to my home by the police had I left. I will admit that I am upset with my T and not looking forward to seeing him again on Friday. I had to sign a contract saying I would keep my appt on Friday and return to see him. Not feeling very trusting of my T at the moment. It's going to take some time to rebuild that trust we had so I can feel that I can be open and honest with him once again. And yes, I know he did it all for my own safety, but it still hurt.

Hope you're feeling better Northgirl. I know hard it is.