"I can tell you that had certain things been in my house I probably would have made the mistake of resorting to their comfort." Are you possibly talking about alcohol, for instance? If that's it (and that's a wild guess) you are very, very smart to keep it out of your home, because alcohol is a depressant and it makes depression worse.

As an after thought, I would add that many doctors now consider alcohol sensitivity to be an allergy, so please don't ever resort to that to self-medicate. See your
therapist, please, if that urge hits you and let him tweak your medications temporarily.

If I'm wrong on that, please accept my apology, but those things that you might
have resorted to are important in your well-being and the fact that you make an
effort to keep them out of your home is very important.

Take care and please continue to post as you wish.