Seeing a psychiatrist once every two months or so is an indication that you may be more stable than you feel at the moment. You would be seeing one every week if the situation were reallyl dangerous for you or anyone.

Why not print a copy of what you have written to us and take it with you to an appointment with your next visit with your psychiatrist? That might alert him that
you need additional help with medications or suggest that you get therapy as soon
as possible after you move. (Since you're moving in two weeks you would hardly establish a relationship with a therapist in such a short time; better, in my view, to
get a therapist in the area to which you are moving.)

If the situation worsens for you in the immediate future, I'd consider going to the emergency room at a hospital. Your mother does want to know what's happening even though it might be a busy time at home.

I understand your feelings and hope you will decide to go into therapy, because that's a very positive step in helping you recover from depression.

How's your diet, by the way? Do you drink a lot of sodas, eat things like chips, snacks, a lot of wheat, etc. ? If so, change your diet to get more green vegetables,
salads, and drink water. Please don't use recreational drugs of any type, and
keep your food less acid-reacting. See http://www.acidreactingfoods.com for
information on which foods are best to help keep a more alkaline state of fluids
and tissues.

Take care and know that it can get much better if you care for yourself well.