Especially first love.
We are especially vulnerable ~ we reach amazing highs that are nearly impossible to beat! However, we also fall to incredible lows ~ we can't imagine our lives ever getting any better. We become absolutely hopeless! What makes this relationship even more intense is how fast these highs and lows come and go. Holy moley!!
Imo, that was a very painful, lonely, and confusing time in my life. I sure as heck wouldn't re-live it for all of the tea in China!!

Best wishes to you....