I may be a little more stable than I'm currently feeling. But even when I wasn't feeling this "bad" I wasn't very motivated. My pdoc did want me to go into therapy; she nudged me forward with a list of recommeded therapists nearby, but I haven't had the energy to look at it and call one. I think it was good advise to call my pdoc and talk to her. I might be especially willing to do this if I work up the guts to tell my mom what I'm feeling.

I want someone to find me a therapist or a program or something that will help me because I'm totally at a loss to do anything to help myself.

We're moving to the suburb over, a grand total of like five minutes away But yeah, I drink a lot of soda and eat a lot of sugar. I kind of always have.