I have been in an awful mood lately and nothing I have done can seem to get me out of this funk. I don't even want to be around myself lately! It so hard to deal with the thoughts in my head sometimes, especially recently. I feel as if it's not even my own thoughts. I can't control them, I just try to think more pleasant thoughts. Here lately the intrusive thoughts are the worst at night, so I haven't been sleeping much. During the day I am doing better at forcing myself to live a normal, productive life; but it still gets difficult. One day I am hoping that I won't have to force it. Maybe one day I will be "normal." All I know is that no matter what I will keep making progress. If you can't fly, run. If you can't run, walk. If you can't walk, crawl. But whatever you do, keep moving forward.