I've never been very good at making and keeping friends. I try my hardest to be nice and kind but people seem to want to punish me into anger which has the opposite effect and I try harder to please them. Anyway a few days ago my friends invited me to go out drinking. I agreed to go and even offered to buy some drinks for people who were worried they wouldn't have the money. So I call my best friend the night before and she says "it's a bad time, I don't think we're going to be able to go." So I say okay and we say our goodbyes then the next day the whole group posts on fb that they can't wait to hang out that night. I call each of them and no one answers. The posts keep coming night after night about how much fun they had and nobody is answering my calls or posts. Normally in this situation I would apologize for whatever percieved insult or crime I have commited but I was too pissed so instead I sent a text to each of them, 'if you didn't want to include me you shouldn't have invited me in the first place.' That was it and they haven't replied but I really didn't expect them to at this point. It's frustrating because this isn't the first time people have done this, the first time for that particular group of friends but not the first it has happened to me. I even had a friend who stole my boyfriend and then tried to stab me after he was already with some other girl.
The whole world can't be this mean so I fell like maybe I'm just to nice but I don't want to be mean like them so I really don't know how to make and keep friends. If I have to do mean things to people in order to belong then I would much rather stay home with my siblings.
Am I making people not like me by being to nice? Or maybe they honestly don't even think I mind, sometimes I am accused of being cold and detatched. Even when I try to be helpful people tell me that because I always smile or have a straight face I don't seem human because it's as if nothing makes me sad or jealous or angry at people.
But that isn't true I can be angry and I do get hurt, just because they never see me cry doesn't mean I don't. I feel that even if the rest of the group doesn't understand that my best friend should.
sorry I was ranting but I'd like to know what people think. Have anyone else ever been made to feel like part of the group and then got left out? Seriously my best friend for six years and I've been supportive and kind and sisterly. It pisses me off because she's like a sister to not only me but my siblings as well but she really hurt me. I don't know how to even approach her or what to think of her.