I couldn't survive with out God. Sometimes when I am at my lowest, I kinda have to treat myself as I would one of my loved ones.. if that makes any sense.

And when it comes to doing things... I turn the music on loud and I pretend I am doing something super fun...I know its lame but its a start..

Also, I read something that helps me.. I'll share it:

" The best remedy for those who are afraid, lonely, or unhappy is to go outside.Somewhere where they can be quiet, alone with the heavens, nature and God.Because only then does one feel that all is as it should be and that God wishes to see people happy. amidst the simple beauty of nature.As long as this exists, and it certainly always will. I know that then there will always be comfort for every sorrow. Whatever the circumstances may be. And I firmly believe that nature brings solace to all troubles." Anne Frank.