Yea I know. It doesn't always work for me either. If I am really tired from lack of sleep I have more trouble fighting the dissociating. which is kind of why sometimes I purposely go to my sessions tired - so that I can't use my background of psych classes, grounding techniques and so on to block when LL is trying to stear the conversation around to harder topics. She can't help me if I am blocking my experiences, memories and emotions from her ALL the time right. time. One thing I have learned is that not dissociating may be the ultimate goal but sometimes you just got to go with the flow because you can't prevent yourself each and every time from dissociating, otherwise how would you begin to remember that memory trying to break through unless you let your guard down and dissociate enough to where you are aware of that memory replaying and at the same time aware of the present.

so when I can't prevent my dissociating I go with the flow and my therapist lets me know "who" was there if she thinks I should know and what happened if she thinks knowing what I said while dissociated will help me and I am ready for it.

Hang in there.