....got my snuggly socks on got my hat on too...top to bottom I'm tight as possible!...

...and this just gives me a little room for comfort I'm seriously trapped!

maybe if I just sit here?


maybe I will be okay?....

or just grip the blood out of me?



..like I know whats going on?...what a fool...!!
I'm stuck here...



there must be a way out?...
am I allowed to escape?...
and did I give up too soon?



...honestly now!...it's most strange being so alone!

and not being lonely!..
I have been alone for so long it's terrible...most nobody like me could handle it...

and people stay alive for the pure aquaintance...

I just stay alive for my mum..

despite all my defects... some things are just way too exceptional..
she went about with me when I was not yet! ....she went about with me even though my sad future was not set....

..and she would have done it anyway knowing what I would become!

and heres the real kicker!

I feel things...I cry at the worst possible times alone and weird...and I'm estranged from the emotional momentum of society I resent the fake crap and the ******** ...

I seem to understand anger more than love...and yet i am kept awake by the memories of tragedy that I cannot understand...

sadness is so captivating....laughter is so enamouring...joy is so perplexing!

I don't have a freaking clue how any of it works

this world is such an expanse...my understanding is so tiny