I understand. I've been through SRA as well as religious abuse. By day one way by night another. Yes it is a very hard thing to prove because there are so many out there that are blinded by the truth. I don't know how many times people would say to me, oh you have such a wonderful family. They were blinded by what they saw and didn't want to see nor hear what was really going on. I don't care anymore. I am not here to prove what happened to me to anyone. If people don't believe it, then it is on them. I know what happened to me and no one can change my mind any other way. All my life I was controlled by someone and being told what was real wasn't really real. I know what was real. I know the abuse, the torture, the being forced to do things to others, the murders, the sacrafices, etc. Those are real. They did happen and no one can make me think otherwise. It was hidden for so many years in my life and I won't hide it again from no one. Not to protect anyone's feelings because it is too difficult to understand or accept. It is real and it did happen to me. Take it or leave it.

*Sorry everyone. Just really outraged right now with a lot of stuff in my life. - Venting. *

*Edited to say that most therapist don't even like to use the word cult because the government nor legal officals want to even think that such a thing happens. What outrage it causes. For me it makes me stronger and wanting to fight harder for my rights and my healing.*