....Oh I want it so bad!

but I can't handle it....

when I'm manic like right now?...yeah I can sort of handle it..

but I still cannot handle it...

..can anybody explain their emotional behaviour?

I watched Dc Phil the last three days...and I could not stop crying!
and then the freaking bold and the freaking beautiful!!..

crying!

and just tv these days...hell...some cooking show made me cry!...damn this!

so I put on judge judy...thinking that would reverse these ridiculous emotions...

I cannot be anywher near anyone without freaking out...

I worry about their life and about their death I see peoples pain in their eyes...in their movements...

I am assaulted with the accidentally arrived emotions of others...

do they even know I felt something?

...and right now I am assaulting you with my experience