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Mar 14, 2013, 01:04 PM
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Member Since: Mar 2013
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So, lately I have been off my medication, because my doctor is a butt about refilling them for me. I have a boyfriend and I love him very much, but I'm afraid I am going to scare him off or push him away.. I don't know if its normal to have the thoughts and feelings I have, but I don't think so.. I was watching a video about relationships with bipolar from a therapist and the way she described how a bipolar diagnosed person acts, is exactly how I am. I KNOW I am bipolar, I've been living with it since I was a young kid. Anyway, I saw people with bipolar have a scaringly high divorce rate and my mom, whom is also bipolar, is absolutely horrible with her marriage, like psycho at times to her husband. Anyway, here is an example of my thoughts.. He still has a friendship with his baby's mom, which is good for the kids to keep contact, but she has pictures of them kissing on facebook, still. I was looking at her facebook and she said a quote about 'you're a joke, we are laughing at you.' And since then, I have it in my head it's a huge set up, which sounds unreal because he has done a lot of things for me (came to meet my family 6 hours away, fixed my car, always comes to sees me, tried to buy me an iPhone, etc) we've been dating for 4 months, I know it's short, but love at first sight.  idk. I just keep thinking they're playing a joke on me and he is still with her behind my back.. He doesn't do anything, but SHE does. I asked her if they had something going on nd she said no, but it seems like she still really wants him.. Am I crazy ?! Someone please help me out, I need someone to talk to.  it's killing me.
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