My pdoc took me off seroquel a few months ago because of the fatigue and prescribed me lithium. My body was able to handle the lithium but I was cycling like crazy and started cutting myself. So my pdoc put me on a lower dose of seroquel to prevent the fatigue. I was on seroquel for over a year and felt great. Now, not so much.

I'm a stay at home dad with a toddler. He recently stopped taking naps so I'm with him all day with little to no breaks. I make money on the side writing, which I can't do now because the only time I have for writing is at night and I'm usually too tired. Even worse, when my wife gets off work, she spends her time doing stuff around the house or gardening, so I'm still stuck taking care of my son.

Don't get me wrong, I love him like crazy. But this is all eating away at my sanity. I have hard time playing with him during the day and he spends a lot of time looking bored - and that eats me up inside. I feel like the worst dad ever. He's going to resent me when he's older, I just know it.

Now I'm having passive sui ideation and see no light at the end of the tunnel.

Sorry for the rant, I've needed to cent for a long time now. Thanks for reading.