well its been difficult. My father has boderline personality disorder def trace of schizoaffective bipolar type. I understand allot of things isnt his fault, but boy has my life been hard and confusing since myself with a mental problem (schizoaffective) needless to say one day I am the best daughter in the world and next I am a piece of crap my mother made. One day everything is okay the next its a living nightmare. Thank goodness I don't live with him anymore, but I do have siblings that do. I don't understand my life, don't understand the things I have been thru because of the mental illness's in my family. I know it has been very hard and just at times don't know what to say or do with him. If I walk away from his rants, its very bad, If I stay and listen to him its even worse because of the things he says. He doesn't care that he hurts people and hardly even remembers his outbursts. Just tired of it. don't know what to do anymore. I know I got issues and I can't help it and I understand that sometimes I confuse those that love me and don't want them out of my life. So I am sure he feels the same way with his problems, just man .. so hard to deal with. exhausted !!