..it's a real shame..!!

and who would imagine that I cannot talk unless I'm smashed!

and every word I ever tapped out here on my keyboard was always way stupid over the limit...

and I choose to change my life today....

so the forum loses a member...and was he ever real?

I guess thats up to you...

I have this wierd illness where I can only communicate when I am off my face....thats how grew up!!

and now I'm going to make the hardest choice of my life....to let it go...

..and conveniently very well done I blew all my cash so I cannot drink again...the shame is not enough...the loneliness is not enough...

what it is?

all mentall illness aside?

I just know it's wrong..

and I aint happy about it...

but hell?...it's now or nothing....

there are people in my life that I love...that I care about...

I still have time to make amends....

I have emptied my heart and soul here..

but it's my family that deserves me

...I have memories that could incinerate this forum....

but I choose to let my emotions burn....

I have to love my family...

and not you

seeya

dm