Hey I've had an alcohol prob myself. I was a binger when I would get manic. AA didn't work for me. In fact....oh never mind. Have u ever tried or heard of smart recovery, rational recovery, sos, lifering? There are many options. For me once I got a mood stabalizer on board I have no desire to drink. Just remember u have much life to live. I think just take a break sober up (if u want to) and do some soul searching. Don't close the account, just take a break. I wish u luck and well wishes.