You're not evil for that Andre, not at all. If he loves you, he'd understand that you need some time to work things out. Nothing wrong with that. Evil, while difficult in and of itself to define, certainly isn't this.

It might help to tell him...I trust he would be supportive of you. Just do be cautious of how...phrasing helps. Hamster gave you good advice there. Ultimately, you don't want it to seem as though his presence is unwanted. You want it to be thought of as you needing time to work on you, which is what it is. The same point can be taken a hundred different ways with the swap of a word.

Please stay safe, and keep us updated. Know you're in my thoughts and prayers.

Hugs,
Harley