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Originally Posted by Ultra Darkness
Do you have any abandonment issues or impulsive behaviors? From what you posted, I'm not entirely sure that could be bpd. Of course, I only really learned of bpd less than three months ago, so I'm still kind of new. Welcome anyway.  |
For first no, it's totally opposite, as for second, sometime.
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Originally Posted by nevergoodenough
It doesn't really sound like BPD to me, but I don't know you and I'm not qualified to tell you that or anything. Mood swings and self harm don't have to mean BPD, neither does feeling your life is going nowhere and being angry. But like Ultra Darkness asked, do you have abandonment issues? What about identity disturbance? From what you said it sounds more like depression to me. But again, I'm not sure. Nevertheless, welcome to the forum. |
I do know that, but considering that I can't see a therapist in RL at the moment, it's the best thing I could think of. For second, again, yes. I keep going back and forth over wanting to "get better & live life", one day I'm convinced I can do it, then next I'm damn sure I can't, that I'm worthless piece of...well, you get the points, and suicidal thoughts appear again...
@AndreC
As I said above, I don't believe I do have problems with that. I mean, most people I met online (well, considering I wasn't going out till recently, for the last 4-5 years), I know I will stop talking to them sometime, or vice versa, and sometimes I do have "impulses" so to say, to stop talking to them now since it's gonna happen anyway, but that's about it, and as far I know it's different with BPD.
Well, except SH, not sure. And no, I haven't talked to any of my old friends for over 3 years (: other than that, there's my family (parents & my brother), with who I don't really get along always, but I guess that's normal.
Yep, to be honest, I'm not sure. I do like to be with people, but not always. I guess that's normal as well, I mean I do like to be with people generally, but... sometimes I feel like going to a deserted island and never coming back.
I do miss being with most of the people I've been friends before, but I also feel like I haven't done anything with my life, and talking with them again then, well, doesn't seem like a great idea to me.
I do act like a bit different person around different people, but I try not to mostly. Or at least I think so. As for emptiness, I'm not sure, probably not.
As for emotions, I believe so. I'm not really... empathetic? Or sensitive as some people that I know are. And to be honest, I'm kinda fine with that. Death of people that I know / that were my friends, etc, doesn't unsettle me or anything. And yes, it happens (more than I'd like to admit). Just few days ago (and few hours ago) I reacted, well... badly (slamming the door & yelling), even thought the reason I was "angry" wasn't really a big deal.
I can mostly control it, but not always... depends on the day, I guess.
It's usually anger, and I feel... well, out of control? So to say. Whatever I'm doing at that moment I usually can't finish it, so I mostly go outside to "cool off". It does feel stronger, but it's definitely better than it was before.
Thanks, and good luck to all of you!