was doing okay most of the day. until i saw husband was off work and went to eat at our favorite restaurant (showed up on our card balance online) but only bought enough for himself. got a little upset, but then remembered yesterday he said he was going to donate plasma and get some money for his cards, and then i was okay again...

and then a couple hours later i saw he had bought something at a bookstore, and i figured he was on his way home then.

but now, another hour later, it's 7 and getting dark and he's not home...

went ahead and fed daughter because i was waiting on dinner until husband got home but seeing as how daughter goes to bed at 8 or so it's dumb to wait any longer...

i know he deserves to get out without me or the kids once in a while - he lets me get out so why not... but it just sucks. at least when i want out i'm honest and say i can't stand everyone at the moment and just want to get away...but he gets away and doesn't say anything, is gone for hours and has left his phone at home...

so...feeling pretty down. at least when i'm out i still keep in touch...

if he doesn't want to be around he needs to just say so...i don't blame him for wanting to get away, either...i'm not good company...

drowning my sorrows in coffee and crocheting.