Old habits die hard. But you did think of journaling. That is awesome. And a year under your belt is fantastic. You have something to be proud of and you have experience under your belt so when you go into you therapist and tell him about this you can hold your head up high and take credit for what you did accomplish. A YEAR! Then you and he can work on what caused this to happen this time. It will be easier because you have eliminated so many things that made you cut before. You have learned to deal with hundreds of little triggers that before caused you to spiral down. Now you get to eliminate one more trigger with the help of a therapist that is dedicated to helping you get well. Once you work through this trigger, who knows, maybe you will go two years before you hit another insurmountable trigger and need that kind of help again.
Carrie

<font color=green>But the implicit and usually unconscious bargain we make with ourselves is that, yes, we want to be healed, we want to be made whole, we're willing to go some distance, but we're not willing to question the fundamental assumptions upon which our way of life has been built, both personally and societally.--Bill Plotkin, Soulcraft