I totally get what you're typing. I get panicky in social settings and ultra sensitive about how I come across. At work I used to be afraid of yelling inappropriate comments or making sexual advances to my boss. It's like my senses are magnified by a million when ppl are looking at me. I also am neurotic about how ppl treat me. I often imagine their mad at me or think I'm mental. My problem was I'd take Valium then drink & blackout over social
Situations. Since I joined AA and quit the pot my anxiety levels have diminished, but I still over analyze the way people act towards me. It's like a horrible form of bring self-centered.

Peace & Hugs,

TnT