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Originally Posted by monarch_butterfly
Over this week my boyfriend is staying with me a lot as I have discovered in therapy I have 3 alters. Anna, Klara and Nellie. I don't have coconcious with any of them. I can only feel if Anna is near by.
Despite my T and I telling him DID CAN'T be fixed over night. He appears to be trying to do just that! Any time he gets an alter out with a trigger or she just comes out on her own. He's asking questions. Everything fron what are you out for? To How many are there of you? To where dobyou live. To what happened to Kerri? To Why do you have to help her now. I know this because he has told me in detail every converzation he has had with them minus triggers and theorises about how various people in my life will react to the alters but runs interferance for me when people that don't know come and meet a 4 year old girl instead of a 35 year old woman.
I am getting overwhelmed with the alters and tired and confused. He wants to FIX me. But i don't want him too. I kerp telling him he's messing with fire but i don't think he realises that. And what do i tell people anyway? I have NO control over when these guys switch with me and no forwarming either. Since I haven't had the tests yet it isnt yet in my medical records. That and what do i do with my boyfriend? The alters are overwhelming him. He cries after they visit sometimes. (They do like him) and he asked them to stay away for the evening politely.
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I forgot to add, I went back and re read your other posts/threads and profile.. I think its great all the progress you are making in such a short time. In just a couple weeks you went from having a therapist who would not discuss or label you with dissociation, and you only knowing one alter, to having a therapist work with you not only on dissociation but DID too, and your therapist discussing DID with your boyfriend, and you being able to identify three alters...goes to show anything is possible even healing from DID at amazing speeds. just do me a favor huh...dont burn yourself out..its ok to go fast but only if your mind can handle healing fast. keep working with your fantastic therapist and between the two of you set a pace that will both be healing and right for you so that you dont end up crashing and burning.