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Old Mar 15, 2013, 01:42 AM
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From long before i was diagnosed, certain songs would pull at my emotions.. I also found the louder the music, the quicker i could get out of my emotional down. Of course it all depended on the music..

however, because i find it extreamly difficult to explain my emotional state at times, i latch on to certain songs, that push and pull my emotions back to where i feel they get balanced...

Years back, extream depresion was 'solved' by listening to MJ's 'Dangerous' CD at near full blast, with me sitting between the two speakers....

Lately, Music has also become my medium to let my wife know how i feel, however most of the time i think it go's over her head completely..

Lately i've latched on several songs that i sit and listen to in the car for the hour commute to and from work. Some days its:
Alex Clare - Too close
Moby - Extreme ways
Roling Stones - Out of tears
Buno Mars - Grenade
Dr Alban - Its my life
Air Supply - All Out of Love
Timbaland/One Republic - Apologize

and on other days:
Savage Garden - Truly Madly deeply
Tailor Swift - A love story
Lifehouse - Between the raindrops
La Vuvuzela - Be mine tonight (local group)
Leann Rimes - How Do I Live

Recently (just before valentines) she heard a song and asked me to listen to it, it was 'Labrinth - beneath your beutiful'.. after listening, she said that this is her dedication to me..
The song choked me up, It explains me TO THE TEE.. and showed me that she does want to see the deep inner part of me that i've kept hidden from her for a long time...

About a week later while we were in the car en route somewhere, i decided to play another song that pulls heavy on my emotions, Mumford and Sons - I will wait. Sitting there in the car with her listening to the song, broke me, and i burst into tears, and cried infront of her for the first time in years. She's since put it on her phone as a personilised ring tone for when i call.

However this is about as far as we've gotten with sharing our emotional state with each other..

Anyway's I've found that Music plays a very important part in balancing my emotional outbreaks..

Then there are several other tracks that are have neutral meanings, or even completely lack any lyrics, i've found that also really pull on my emotional strings... like:
The XX - Intro
Counting Crows - Mr Jones
Fools Garden - Lemon Tree
Orbital - Halcyon & On & On
Kim Wilde - Cambodia (Pulsedriver version)

Does anyone else feel that bond with music..

NOTE: Savage Garden - Truly madly Deeply was released the year we started dating, and was also the first song the we heard on the radio that first morning we woke up in each others arms after a night on the town where we realized we wanted to be together, It was our wedding song, and the words are engraved into both our wedding bands..
Hugs from:
GirlOfManyFaces
Thanks for this!
GirlOfManyFaces