that's good that she asked you how you were doing, she obviously cares. i know that it can be difficult, and a lot of the time it is easier said than done, but you have to stop beating yourself up. your actions don't define you. you aren't a bad person because you acted badly, you're simply a person who acted badly. you can make the choice to learn from it, as we learn through trial and error. if you want to speak to her and she wants to speak to you (which i presume from her reaching out to you, but do not know for sure), don't punish both of you. if you genuinely want to see your past, and what happened on sunday, as a lesson, then you can make amends with what happened and move on. you can choose to better your life and strive towards goals that you want to achieve for yourself.

i've been working hard this past week to accumulate the tools to see things differently. what i said to you come a lot from what i've been reading and trying to ingest this past week. i'm trying to journal daily now to learn to deal with my emotions (i've never been good at dealing with them), and to better myself. writing things down can be vindicating and helpful. perhaps come up with a list of goals or values; things that you want for yourself, things that matter to you. adapt your behaviour to your goals, don't adapt your goals to destructive behaviour.