I am a straight woman, age 41. Before meds I was hypersexual. I could even orgasm spontaneously from thinking a thought. Not many women have this ability. I know my bipolar mom had similar orgasms as well.

Enter the meds and I am completely asexual. I am divorced and it does not matter now but I am just curious how other people are affected. On Geodon, I have a wonderful erotic dream say, once a quarter. On Risperdal, I did not have even that. My sexual organs do not feel touch (as if the nerve endings died). I do not have any lubrication. I do not remember what it feels like to want a man. I do not believe I will get aroused ever in my life.

I had my fair share of sex so I am not feeling unfulfilled, but it frightens me to think that if I ever am ready to enter a relationship, I would not have what it takes for the initial bond to form. Also, the asexuality seems so pervasive that I sometimes think that even if Geodon were lifted and substituted for with another drug, my asexuality would stay with me. It seems that the damage is forever.