There are things I can't imagine ever telling my T. The odd thing I've posted on here, and lots I haven't. Rationally I know he could help, that he could make me feel better and not worse. But I can't shake the belief that he'll think: "How can she talk about that?" That he'll think badly of me for telling him.

I told him one really difficult thing when I was in a total crisis and, even though he was brilliant, I still convinced myself he thought badly of me for telling. I imagined him thinking: "If that really happened and she really has just remembered it, she wouldn't be telling me."

I tell other people to talk to their Ts about things, but I can't picture telling him, having him know, some things, without me having to crawl into a hole in the ground. I don't want to tell him now, but I also don't want to spend years and years in therapy not telling him, while it eats away inside me.

How do you tell your T that there's stuff you can't tell yet? Is there any way to do that? How do you believe that they don't think badly of you?