bubsmiley, I don't want to be overly alarmist, but have you considered that you might be in a very dangerous situation here? This man abused you and disrespected you severely, for years. He won't be any more considerate of your feelings when he finds out that you want a divorce.

What will you do if he refuses to leave? The guns are very concerning because leaving an abuser can often set him off worse than he ever was before. Would he try to kill you or prevent you from leaving? Stay safe! You're doing the right thing. Hang in there!