Speed,

I have been reading your posts and can not begin to imagine what you are going through. But I want to let you know that I am praying for you. I am praying that God reveals His love for you, that you feel His peace and His arms around you comforting you. I encourage you to continue to pray and talk with God. Tell him exactly what you are feeling whether it is sadness or anger or whatever feelings you might be having.

May God bless you and comfort you.