Dear T,

I woke up in pain, then had a little something to eat before taking med. Short while later I am crying again, feeling so much pain both physical and mental. Why am I such an emotional mess? I feel so vulnerable, so weak, so needy. I need to call you, I need someone to comfort me but I can't call you. We just had a session last night. I need you but have no right to ask. This is so hard....maybe more meds will help. Surgery stinks when you're alone. I hate being alone.