I am fighting this inner battle with Myself and have been for 2 + years. I am in love with a man that has been so wonderful to my kids, and me well some. He can be so mean. I am an educated lady. If you knew me before this relationship you would never think I would be like I am... Controlled. My love is a successful businessman. I have an important position at my work. He is used to women who only want him for what he can do for them. He has spent the 10 years before me dating around and messing with young girls and girls he didnt have to worry about committing to. I have truly loved him. And i do believe he loves me. he is just scared of getting done like he has done other people. he does havE a shady past. he gets so mad over nothing. he has called me everything but a child of God. His accusations are so rediculous. I have tried to tell him to stop looking for bad. its just not there. i have taken this and have been totally innocent. Really, he gets mad and calls me terrible names and talks so ugly. He says I have no credible friends. We have broken up 8 times in the time we have been at this whatever it is. He comes back and I am there. I haven't been with another man the whole time even during the break ups. He has accused me of everything possible. He tells me somebody called his work and told him stuff. We am not that important that somebody sits around thinking "hey ill a screw her world up today and call --- and tell him stuff". Really??? Why do I sit here upset over something clearly so not good for me? I don't have the first friend that says anything good about him. He knows in his heart he has been bad. He told me. Any advice on how to not look back and move on? If somebody were doing this to my friends or my girls I'd be ready to hurt somebody. All of this, I am the one who sounds crazy.