Yea I understand. I've been almost manic lately. Felt decent yesterday morning, kinda like the drugs are finally working. Nothing changed but felt better. Then just broke last night while listening to Purple Rain. I didn't want to put anyone through what I've done before. I just sat alone, feeling so isolated and like the weight of the world was on my shoulders. I don't know what to tell you but I think a lot of us are the same.