I actually DETEST being at home.

I feel so angry at everyone all the time, I just dont want to be here because I'm treating my sister how my mum used to treat me. My mums not so bad now and I just want to leave her to bring up my sister.

**** :'(

I just want to move into my grandad's. But its not like a real life. My feet dont feel like there on the ground it his, it just feels like I'm running. I just slip into his life, the life of an old man. I'm only young for christ sake.

I wish I could just live there until I could get a house with my friends. I only stayed at home to look after my Nan and shes dead now. I was meant to be moving out with some friends next year but theyre not sure anymore so wont put their name down on a lease f or anywhere.

I just feel so alone It feels like my only option is to give up.