Buttercup, I understand your reluctance to trust and that is totally reasonable. I'm afraid to be honest, but I feel I have to be. A therapist shouldn't try to push you into deep trauma after only 4 sessions. Sorry to say so, but you have to build up the relationship before anything of the kind takes place. And that's not my opinion. It's based on clinical literature about all sorts of therapy, especially that dealing with trauma. A phase of learning some emotional regulation skills along with building the relationship always has to occur before any approach to traumatic material. I don't know what to recommend to you, but I think this has to be slowed down or you need to be referred out to someone who can take a different approach if you don't feel comfortable and feel "pushed."