I'm interested in this idea and have been afraid to try it. I recently got in trouble for something I wrote with sexual content while I was asleep on Ambien so I've felt traumatized by sexuality since then.

I do have toys and have just started to try, but they don't seem to be working which is not typical of me. I simply want the physical release of tension at this point, but I think that it is hard for me right now because of the still fresh problem concerning sexuality. Perhaps finding a "sex buddy" even on the internet might help me overcome this problem?