Thanks, it's just reassuring to know that I can continue to feel my sexuality, which I've always felt comfortable with, and not treat it as a problem, which my unfortunate incident made me feel bad about.

Toys are just an aid to relaxation and the body naturally responds. It's nothing kinky. I think that finding someone on the internet is probably not a good idea at this point. I feel far too vulnerable and do not really like various things that might be expected.

I'll work it out on my own and figure out what might be something to try.