it seems like everything has gone downhill once I got off Paxil (about a year ago). ever since then I've tried Luvox, Prozac, Celexa, Effexor, Klonopam, Buspar, and now I'm on Anafranil. I don't even know what to categorize myself as anymore but I know I have these unrealistic paranoid thoughts that just WON'T GO AWAY. it's a deeply embedded FEAR of like other people that they are all plotting something against me and they all know something I don't know. even people that are my friends, I can't even talk to them normally because it's like somehow in my voice they can hear that I have these doubts about them and on my face they can see I have these doubts about them, along with everyone else who may be a complete stranger. it's worse when strangers start to become familiar then I think that they're talking to me just to rub stuff in my face or something. I'm a cashier at a grocery store so this is becoming hard. I wish I could just think of this as small but it's making itself a big deal in my life. and of course it's making me depressed and sad and hopeless, not being able to get out of this state of thinking. it's like I feel like they have alterior motives than just knowing me as a person. I'm doubting what I stand for and what I believe in and it's like I definetly am not myself anymore and I can't even joke with people and be goofy and they can't joke with me and I'm so sensitive to things and I just want to get out of this. I don't know if it's OCD or bipolar or schizophrenia but does ANYONE have any experience close to mine that they can HELP ME in this. this Anafranil helped in the beginning (maybe first week I was on it) but I DON'T GET IT why would it poop out after like one week. my psych says she really doesn't like to give antipsychotics because of some kind of uncontrollable limb movement thing, I really can't recall the name at this moment. I just need some advice, someone who's had a story like this before and even going through it now. I need to know if there's something out there that can help me.