After 9 mo of chemo/radiation for Hodgkins, + morphine withdrawal, + severe insomnia + depression+possible PTSD, my husband still is weak, and somewhat depressed. Zoloft prescribed by Oncologist. Husband refuses therapy, but still can't cope. I'm burned out as his primary caregiver and from trying to keep our 2 small business afloat. I am in therapy. I hoped that this illness would teach BOTH of us some things to improve our relationship. Now husband wants me to make all decisions, refuses to discuss his feelings. I feel used up and his very presence drains my energy. I have realized that I have spent the last 19 years trying to please and repressing my own needs and feelings. I now want to enjoy and appreciate life, but also to participate in it. I have been specific and honest, but husband will not discuss. I am ready to leave except it would cause bankruptcy for me and turmoil for my employees who have carried much weight through this trial. That feels morally wrong. How can I learn to cope for a little while more?