Man, it sucks, doing it again and over again. I gotta get a grip on it. I can't stand how my friends and lovers push on me about meals. I told them mostly that I can't eat stuff and I can eat other stuff. He still buys icecream, dishes it out and sticks it in my face. The other day he had a pizza delivered and puts it in my face again. He knows and I tell him enough about not giving me food, I just hate and it is as if he on purpose does it to me.

Why can't they respect me. Why do they just forget stuff. Then when I turn down the stuff, they make fun of me and call me names. They do the same thing with beer. I told them that I gave it up and stuff and they just open them and hand them to me anyway. I can't accept the way people keep treating me.

I take medicine that in the past put on too much pounds and I am on something a little better. I used to eat alittle bit more and now my doctor tells me to stay off of high fat meals like cheese and milk above 2 percent. I have to follow the orders of the doctor.

I don't weigh the 219 now but it was maybe a year ago or year and half when I couldn't buy comfortable stuff in the second hand store. I am not too rich and can't shop often for clothes that are comfortable. Going on clothes shopping trips are not a woope te do EVER. Now I dispise clothes shopping.

You know I just can't understand how my family and friends are so stupid and unkind about my bullima problems. Why can't they just lay off me?

Why can't they just shut up once and a while when I have veggies and salads many days in a row. I usually fix great food like potatoes and gravy and chops for them. I made spegetti and meatballs last week. I made homemade chicken soup yesterday. How come they treat me this way? If they want to enjoy their other stuff, can't they keep their mouth shut and not ostrasize me so darn stickin much.