new here - hi.

numb ourselves....yeah....been there - I lost the ability to feel some time ago....but at the same time, while repressing my own feelings, reactions to my personal life, I am overcome with debilitating emotions in regards to issues, situations outside my realm.

reality is too hard to deal with. talk about hitting a nail! I'm on my last strand of yarn here. i'm forgetting to bathe, to eat. i'm in pain constantly. my reality is so difficult, so painful....i've not got the strength to deal every day without something to maintain me - presently, it's chocolate. i've been eating chocolate like it's going out of style. damn, even my little quips suck lately.

i think i'm forgetting how to handle it all. all i can do is breathe and sit sometimes. i'm so lonely and afraid.

does a crazy person know their crazy? or is lunacy defined by those who have deemed themselves sane? is it an objective or a subjective opinion?

i really need some help. i'm so scared.