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Originally Posted by Secretum
I think I found the root of my desire to die. I feel suicidal when I realize how disappointed I am with life. Life hasn't been what I was hoping it would be, and the discrepancy between the actual and the ideal tortures me. Now I need to figure out how to better my life, or learn how to accept it as it is.
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I felt the same way for a long time. I feel like I wasted my four years at uni because I spent so much time being preoccupied with the disorder. I missed out on a lot of social functions/research opportunities/job opportunities/grades. Then I graduated and essentially stopped functioning and felt bad about myself for over half a year.
Hamster is right, there will be a lot of disappointments. The biggest thing I've come to cope with/learn is that I can shape my future and its not too late for me. It isn't too late for you, either.