Thank you Passionsky and Payne, it means a lot to me and I really believe in the power of thoughts, prayers etc. Waiting for any answer is hard I cannot imagine how she feels.

I have been a bit absent but I just feel overwhelmed and detached. I have a feeling I can't shake that this is very bad.

I am so sorry about your mama Passion it's so tough

And thanks for the hugs Hammy, Hanky, and Confused. Means a lot to me.