Move on. Don't rehash. This is YOUR time to find out what you want. It was for the best. just give it some time so you can see the bigger picture. I get a long ok with my ex, but I am not attracted to him. we are amicable towards each other because of kids. But I really could care less about his personal life, and vice versa. Communicate on an as needed basis, and that will help a lot.

You have so much going for you. You have to let go and start changing those things about you that you want/need to. Get to know new people, take up a new hobby.

We usually see past relationships how we wanted them to be. not how they actually are. especially if you think the other person is living the high life and their grass is greener - which it is not.

So let go. Greater things are ahead for you, but you have to go after them, and it sounds like this relationship is not it.

All the best to you.