I do-need to see a doctor. It's taken me a while to realize this because, while I knew something was wrong, there was another part of me that felt my thoughts, beliefs, etc were right. So, now I'm aware, and I'm just ready to leave it be.

I'm in the U.S, and unfortunately, universal health care is not offered here. I don't know what else I can do, but I do know that I will not live like this for much longer.

Thanks for your support.