i dont know what kind of personality disorder i have but it seems like i have trouble forgetting the past. i keep thinking of how people used to bully me when i was a kid and how i had gone through so much and how i had to pull myself out of it eventually. i had been through one therapist but she did not help at all. plus when an authoritative figure yells at me, i get upset. i have been through a lot and i don't know how i can handle it. i keep saying to myself that i will get revenge and that every person who's ever hurt me is going to face the consequences. but the thing is i dont want to hurt them; i just want them to acknowledge their guilt. but of course, people will not admit that they're guilty. i am just not ready to give up the past. i keep wanting to forget but i can't. and the thing that really kills me is that they have not been through what i had so i really want them to suffer.
i hate when older people scold me because it makes me feel as though i am worthy of being yelled at. i don't like it when people do that. i have had enough. and the world looks upon me as a menace of society.