I have worried less about the "what if" problem...

I do not feel guilty for being asked not to do something at work, and to leave it for the weekend team to do (It sounds odd doesn't it but it is just me, always think I need/have to do it to get it done.... giving faith in others to do the right thing in away today for me)......

And I am thinking--- It will benefit me to stop smoking, trying a different route of thinking on this instead of the pressure of "need" to do this or that.